the life of an overaged child

I hit a wall last week.
Not literary, geez, who do you think I am. I don't have no visual neglect, thank you very much.

No. It was out of pure tiredness, boredom and sickness from continuously staring at my books, my notes and my computer, trying to study with all my might. Yes, not surprisingly it didn't work. So I decided to do more constructive stuff.

Like start a new blog. Get sick (this time literary) and have been coughing like a mad cow ever since. And then realised, with absolute clearness in the mind, mind you, that I need to get distracted. Because I could actually kill myself over this crazy little thing called..erm..exams.

And so, I mustered all self-confidence.
I decided to do something creative...and orignal (I need to work on that!).

I wrote on my hand (it says: LOVE IS GONNA DROWN)
Played myself music I hadn't heard in, oh, ever! (Duffy's Rockferry Album that has been sitting in my hard disc since forever)
Write random bits of poetry all over my notes. * As a consequence, I'm having trouble decifering my actual notes. Oh well...
I called mom and dad.
Watched (500) Days Of Summer (love.love.love! that movie)
Ate the same food I've been having for the past week (tuna salad, again) but with different things thrown in (today was beetroot, beans, and wholegrain mustard balsamic dressing)
Sleep an hour later than usual
Talked on facebook for 1hr (I've never talked on facebook before...even for 1 hr!)
Think of ways to deter WMD from making me take her pictures of Flinders Uni (urgh. NO)

Ahhhh....
The wonderful boring things you can do to occupy yourself and get away from study. Now I really hate getting back to reality.

Maybe I'll just sleep. Afterall, it is already 1hr past my bedtime...

try my bestest not to fail!

OMG. The exam yesterday was horrible. It was disgusting. It was sooo difficult.
Willem. You tricked us. Your answers...are you even sure they are right? You say one thing in your notes, another thing in the exam. Please!! Can't you be more consistent??

Do you have any idea how much of a headache the exam was??
I might have gottem worse stressing over it!

Come today, with my new inhaler, curtesy of the Doctors at main campus, who hooked me up with it, I feel a lot better. I'm still coughing though. Makes me wonder if paying $70 (yes, bloody expensive) for that puffer/inhaler that makes me feel asthmatic (I've joined the club of ventolin inhaling patients) is worth it.

Went over to Wei Qin's place last night again. And we went for a nice breakkie at ETC! Yum.
Now that I'm back, I steadfastly refuse to go through ALD. I've finished studying for it. And now, am as complacent as ever/usual. Why. Why must it be this way??

I'm sooo looking forward to monday! New Moon with Bushra! Yeah, already playing before my exam..
I'll finish it all by tmr/monday morning! Definately. But its also a matter of motivation. Now that I'm so near the end, home is what is keeping me going!!

And yet, I feel empty inside. Depressed even. I won't see this beautiful place that I have come to love in at least 7 months!! Not including the time I might be around to help bro set up his stuff!!

Argh.

Exams. Tuesday. Bring it on.

Dam you Oz and your laid back culture.
Seriously, its a real pain in the ass, when your doctor first sends you home with panadol, and then when you got worse, can't see you till, oh, about 20 mins before your exam.

Is it even worth it. I could have died over the week and they won't see me at all. And if the pain gets unbearable, you go to the Emergency Department at FMC.

Why must it be this way? Don't you care for what happens to people in general? We demand to be seen!!

I'm just so pissed off in general, with how they do things here. I'm just coughing up phlegm, no biggie.
But geez, you guys suck.

There are pros and cons I guess...

I'm just soooo frustrated with everything right now. SO frustrated. I gave a f**king pissed off call to the health and counselling office just now and the let me see the doc at 10.45 am. Must you show attitude to get things done?
I hope not. I promise I'll be nice to the next person who speaks to me.
Not including WMD. She's still a bee-yatch in my eye.

I had my VIVA today, the one on my placement.
Was freaking out sooo badly before it, I was afriad I would spew (vomit) like I nearly did on the one for last semester (swallowing anyone?). Am still sick, so all this stress and study isn't really helping me much. I did do A LOT of study today, since being in the library from about 11am, and doing work till now..which is about...5.20pm.

W-O-W

Most productive in a long time! I think its the being sick part that really got me down the tracks. Hopefully the exam tomorrow doesn't really suck that much. But alas, I'm not that hopeful, this is Willem we are talking about. His English is just as bad as my Singlish, ok, thats mean. But you'd have to meet him to know. Its a shoot and miss where he's concerned!

I'm dying. Literally. This year's exam is killing me. I've never done so much for one exam. I'm beginning to wonder if it is actually really worth it to do that much study, when in the end, I'll probably just pass, or just fail, and have to email him to make me pass.

I can't wait.This time next thursday, I'll be home!! HOME!!!

Ahhh!! Excitement!

Now, leave me. For I have some more studying to do...

Guess what??

The weather forecast for the day--40deg!!!
WHAT THE---

I can feel it already. It is about 9.20am Adelaide time (6.50am for you Singaporeans), and it is boiling in my room. I've got the fan on at full blast, and my window closed to keep the hot!hot! air out!

I don't know how Australians survive such a summer, how people in Darwin or Alice Springs can live in such scorching conditions. From my limited knowledge (and life experience), I can safely tell you that I've learnt some cool ways to, erm, keep cool.

Like ice. Nice ice. Or wet towels. And air-con, which I don't have currently in my unit.

And by not going out. Which is easily done, since I'm studying for my 3 other exams anyway. Which I wish could be over ASAP so I can go home!!!

Home. 11 more days! Can you believe it??
I'm almost done!!! So close!!!
3rd year, almost over (well, if I pass it).

Where did time go?
I hate to say this, but facing your books everydays makes you not keep track of your days. I thought that today was monday, when it is in fact, sunday. But it goes to show how much I want my days over! HAHA.

What else I've got left:

Thursday- VIVA @2.40pm
Friday- Psycholinguistics @1pm
Tuesday- Acquired Language Disorders @9am

I'll be doing both Psych and ALD in the library, since my lecturer, Willem, has returned home (to the land of the Dutch, as he lovingly refers to it), and won't be back till feb.

On another note, I've got a job interview in December---what do I wear for it??
Its at Max & Co. Must I wear heels? Is jeans appropriate? Geez, this working thing is so different from what I'm used to!

Onward with the exam study!

I think you can tell by the number of times that I'm blogging so far, that I am severely, extremely stressed. And really really free.

Or maybe, just procrastinating.

Its true. There is too much a gap between my exams that I don't feel motivated at all. Actually, that lack of motivation is probably the cause of my stress.

And boy, is it taking a toll on by body. Not that the weather is helping.

(a) I can't sleep.
(b) Even if I do, I either oversleep, or wake up like 1-2hrs before my alarm clock goess off.
(c) Even if I do end up sleeping in the first place, it is way past 11pm. Which is very, very unsual for me in a school year.
(d) My skin starts getting oily (even in this dry weather) and I get a lot more acne.
(e) I gain weight. Not just from eating too much, but from the lack of exercise/laziness as well.
(f) I get very, very pissed off easily for no reason. I turn into the Mao Monster!
(g) My hair gets dry and crackly, despite the huge amount of conditioner I put, daily.

I think anymore of these stress-related bodily malfunctions will make sure no one else will come within 3 feet of me. Or an arms length even.

How sad. I actually miss winter.

Sigh.

Oh! Went to Gelatissimo today. Nice ice-cream. 2nd time I've had it this week!! How bad for my health!! Urgh.